Tuesday, May 11, 2004
So What

So what; If I refused to pick up his call
So what; If I didn't reply his initial sms
So what; If I did pick up his call the following day
So what; If I did say horrible things
So what; If I did try to be rude
So what; If I did make him angry
So what; If I could not see him eye-to-eye anymore
So what; so what
I was never the one. So what.
I am never good enoguh for him. So what.
I am no big deal to him. So what.
He will never care. So what.
He might even say, "Have we started something in the first place?"

Not that I am happy with what I've done but what better options do I have. Only time will heal. And how long, God knows. No wonder he once told me not to try too hard or don't take things too seriously. *laughs* It's so unfair that I am the only one who feels jilted and hurt. Memories of me would just be erased from his head. If only things were that easy for me. *smirked*. No no. This is not the case of misjudgement. But it takes two hands to clap isn't it?

Oh do tell me that "SHE DESERVES IT!" in a your mean-est voice.. Or maybe "SERVES HER RIGHT". I kindda like the beat you know. I know. I know. I have heard enough. Yes Yes. I deserve it. Yes Yes. Serves me right. "I know what I am in for." (Yeah, right. To be honest, I don't.) "IT WOULDN'T WORK OUT" I thought so. But seize the day isn't it? *sobs**sobs*


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