Wednesday, May 19, 2004
People

People change with time. Everyday, our character is moulded into different ways by the experience and challenges we face. Do you know who a person really is? Do you know who you are?

Yesterday, I was having a late dinner with a friend whom I've not seen for ages. Maybe close to half a decade perhaps. He told me, 'You keep alot of things to yourself don't you?' A moment ago, a good friend of mine said the same thing too. 'I cannot help you if you keep everything to yourself.'

I thought I was otherwise. Maybe past experiences wouldn't allow me to trust people so easily anymore. Maybe the emotional trauma that I once went through no longer allow me to open up so easily to people anymore. Maybe this and maybe that.

Generally, people don't care. It is not easy for everyone to accept a person unconditionally. There are also people who can't seem to understand the meaning of respect. Voltaire once quoted, 'I may not agree with what you said but I shall defend till death your right to say it.' Do people respect the right of others to be different? Do we always have to conform to social norms and expectations of others? I am quite sick of the usual 'thy greater than thou' attitude of some people.

Being overly sensitive, I have no choice but to take a step back when it comes to social grounds. I had given up the days of having great network of friends but little when it comes to the quality of friendship. Those who know me well will understand me for who I am and the things I do. As I grow older, I no longer see the need of having to explain myself. And that's how you get misunderstood for many things but I just couldn't be bothered. I used to confront things in an open manner but I prefer the silent approach these days. Depression does not exactly allow me to be friendly and the ciggies isn't doing my brain any good either.

n-g || 8:52 pm || ||
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