Tuesday, March 23, 2004
I'm Pissed

People say that I am very vocal. Yes. I am good at screaming bad words and showing my middle finger (yes yes.. i know it is meaningless.. but just for the sake of doing it.. why not)...Somehow, I am still bad at conveying my feelings in terms of words. Technically (err.. what's so technical about it..?), this is my third week in university (excluding orientation week) and I am still not getting used to it. It seems to take forever for my 'study engine' to warm up. In comparison with my batch mates, I really feel guilty because they seem to study day and night but I am just so not that type. Something is wrong with me as I am still fumbling with the scientific/medical terms. Summative 1 is like next month and I still know nuts about biochemistry. (was that supposed to be the easiest part in the whole semester one?.. if yes, then something must have been very very wrong with my room's feng shui..>>>>>:((((((((((()..Yes yes, day and night you have professors and facilitators telling you that medicine is a life long learning and it's so damn vast.. (read: keep your anxiety and curiousity as minimal as possible) ... the course matrix is so blank....

Anyway, I just had my PBL.. As usual, I don't fancy PBL. I still think it's dumb and a waste of time. Blah.. don't bother convincing me...

'mr blah blah blah aged blah blah blah with blah blahblah children wakes up in the morning and found that the right half of his body was unable to move.. blahblahblah..skin sensation was not felt and speech was disturbed.. blah blahblah .. doctor found the higher functions of the nervous system was normal .. blah blah blah .. cranial nerves was also normal .. blah blah blah.. stroke .. blah blah blah.. tendon reflexes exaggerated and muscle tone was increased.. blah blah blah blah...'

TELL ME!! HOW DOES THAT SOUND!? *yawn*

what are you supposed to do after that? you must analyse sentence by sentence and learn up what you don't know... BINGO!!! Although it's related closely to our daily lectures, I still cant gauge how deep is deep, how far is far and things like that. Facilitators have a copy of LEARNING OBJECTIVES to guide us along the way but unfortunately, we do not exactly know what those objectives are. Sigh. I am so sick of it. *bangs head on the wall* ..

Today, Mr Xerox came to deliver the books. I did my best and in the end i'm being potrayed as the evil of all evil. Where's justice man. Blah. What comes around goes around. I am not going to curse you of getting sore penis or prostate cancer or things like that. No one understands me and some people are just so damn of being a moral police. Seriously, I still think that his dick is superior to his head! Anyway, thanks to Mun Yee again for helping me in distributing the books and I am really sorry due to the fact that you were unable to attend the talk by Dr. something something regarding the USMLE stuff. Hope to find someone that could give you more details on it in future.


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