Sunday, February 22, 2004
Hard Headed

I have strong confidence in bagging first prize for the stubborn and hard headed award if there is ever one. Once I believe in something, it is not that easy for people to convince me into something which contraries to it. I am firm when it comes to that. Occasionally, I do defend my stand but I do keep it in control so that unnecessary arguments can be avoided. Voltaire once said, 'I may not agree with what you say, but I'll defend to the death your right to say it.' This philosopher is simply wonderful. How can I apply this in my daily living?

Apart from being a pig-headed, cold-hearted is another unconstructiveness behaviour that I possess; just like my aunt. Long time ago, she told me, 'You know, if something bad happens to someone for not taking my advice, I will not offer help when he comes back to me.' I was happy when I heard that because she finally put my feelings about people around me into words. (Well, I am not exactly very good at expressing myself or feelings.) There is no exception for this. If I wasn't being put in the big picture in the first place, why should I give two hoods about you when you encounter with some problems? In addition, wicked me is hoping so bad that the world would give you some of its fair share of 'torsuiness' . To me, the more - all the better. I don't care if you are to come and tell me that there are many people in the world and minus me will not make much difference.. that sorta thing.. I simply don't care. Even if I do, (yes the big IF is there), I will be saying back the same thing to the person. Some people, (especially gullible girls who choose to follow their feelings and not their brains [if they ever do have one]) just don't deserve to be sympathised. PADAN MUKA is all I can say. I know this sounds untactful but I couldn't care more.

Now, it's my turn. How do I perceive the idea of taking advice from others? After reading what I have written, I hope I did not leave you with the impression that pig-headed me is too stubborn to take any advice from people. I am not giving you any chance to use the Malay proverb, 'sepandai-pandainya tupai melompat akhirnya jatuh ke tanah juga' on me. Listening to the whole wide world for advice could be lethal you know (especially your own parents). Mind you, I am not an ungrateful daughter by saying that but parents are not right all the time even though there's no doubt that 'they eat more salt than you eat rice.' In my personal opinion, if things didn't turn out the way as they are supposed to (after listening to their so-called advice), it would be more painful and disappointing because of the amount of trust you have in them. (Aiya, where got parents sabo own children wan leh?) I like to listen to people's opinion and ask them for advice (not that I need them but just to 'test water' that sorta thing). No, I am not being insincere but I want to know what kind of mentality and thoughts people have in their minds.

If I am not wrong, people who are born in the year of Ox are usually very stubborn. However, I do not believe whole-heartedly in things like Fortune Telling, Feng Shui (reminds me of Lilian Too and her A-F@#&-TION), Zodiac Prediction, Astrology, Horoscopes or things like that. Everyone is unique in their very own ways. Not all Ox share the same traits do they? Hmph, let me browse through the internet to see if there's anything I can conclude from this.

' …The ox is both patient and meticulous with strong principles, and as such tends to be very stubborn. The ox is extremely strong, and an excellent worker. However, these traits also make the ox stubborn, and their sense of self reliance makes it difficult for them to ask for or to receive assistance. Don't go looking for an evening of scintilating conversation from an ox as they are poor conversationalists, and unfortunately don't have much of a sense of humour either. Oxen are ruled by conviction, and they are not often swayed from their beliefs.' [ChinaTown Online]

'...Ox person is stubborn and difficult to change views and can be carried away with convention thus considered too rigid. Is dogmatic and lacks humour.' [Geomancy.Net]

Oh boy, this is scary. I never did know that whatever I did mention earlier on about me is part of the ox trait. Yes fine. I am a poor conversationalist and I don't have much sense of humour. I am too rigid and dogmatic. Blah blah blah. So anyone want to denounce me and refuse my friendship? Ha-ha-ha. Go kiss my (_|_) man! Bleh!

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